Living The Nightmare

I thought I had paved myself a new road

Life was beautiful I had a new direction

I was heading to pastures new I felt carefree again

But it didn’t last the dark shadows of my past follow me

I can’t seem to shake them, they haunt my sleep

They creep into my bed at night and get into my head
Why can’t they leave me, is a little peace too much to ask

I once was happy and carefree but it feels like a lifetime ago

These shadows that haunt me I thought had finally died

A corpse to be burned in the ashes and scattered on the winds of change

But I was wrong I was so wrong why did they return

They came back disguised as friend hiding behind a masked smile

I surrendered myself blindly to them like a trusting fool

The shadows crawled over me once more and I cannot break free

It feels like I am being swallowed up in a pit of despair

Is this it, is this going to be my end…

Will I ever get the chance to start afresh

To be me, to be the me I know I can be

But I feel so trampled and crushed a prisoner of my past

Will I succumb and give in, will the shadows drag me down

I can’t sleep the night terrors wake me from my slumber

Silently I scream my heart racing I am covered in sweat

It is like I have seen a ghost and the ghost is me

This dream this nightmare will not go away

I feel my end is near I live in fear every second every second…